"you're the same...i mean that in a good way"

what joie said to me after not seeing her since last April... actually joie, you just missed it.

funny how things happened the way they did. jeona said (after not talking to her since time immemorial) that i was different... in a way that she couldn't express to be good or bad... just different. How joie saw me as the same when the transition point was in between is beyond me.

maybe it doesn't matter. :) the same feelings are happening again... as though nothing happened between April and now. Like my life just lapsed a while from then to now, only accounting is 10x harder and i have a pang of pain on my chest every 10 mins or so. My personal stand was supposedly: a student of life who learns from all the mistakes you have to go through. So why do i feel like the entire 8 months just happened for no good reason.

life...is not worth living sometimes. or maybe it's just because i'm back to who i was before that day of october... it's like nothing happened

"you're the same... i mean that in a good way. you're the vincent i like, and if you're any different you'll be a different vincent."

...right...

Vincent, your true color is Blue!

You're blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!
-from http://web.tickle.com