...it shouldn't be mine, but i feel better this way...

...don't misunderstand me... the last thing i want to do with my life is to add more problems into it, it just so happens that listening to your (used in plural sense) problems make me forget my own and realize that my little life is indeed just another little life...

purpose, it's what makes sure i don't stab myself with the cutter i always keep at bedside...meron pang may kelangan sayo, bawal ka pang mag-shortcut... meron pang saysay ang buhay, may bukas pa, may magagawa ka pa naman...

they don't mean to gang up on you, they just do because it's easier to take a side... to support the "victim" by the easiest way possible: make the other the "villain". Yes, it is unfair...but they are human. Yes, the emotions that you have given was rewarded by nothing more than pain... but they are human... People try to bring the sense of "humane" into a just sense...but isn't it more "humane" to be unfair, vengeful, unthrustworthy. You are human after all, born with sin. And humans are born with the capacity of malice, hatred, and deceit...all because they're sense of love has been twisted in a way.

life is easier when you find someone to support you...it may not be fair, it may not be respectful, it may not be right...but it is easier...and the fact that you are human gives you all the reason in the world to become unfair.

simply put, only the naive would find the world FAIR. and only the idiot would keep on smiling after the world has stepped on him/her.

so why are you still smiling? why do you choose to smile even if it already hurts too badly? why do you care for those who did not even consider what you may have felt?

IS IT WORTH IT?

For the record, i'm siding with no one (as i always have). All i can do is give you advise that may or may not even be sound. I want you to talk, don't shut the world out just because you are afraid of what it will say. It doesn't have to be now, but you should still do it. Making mistakes in the past won't give you an excuse to keep making more...so please, even if you know the answer will hurt you, have the courage to listen to it...it shan't be a comfort in the present, but i think it's the only, truly fair way to end it, for both of you... don't make the same mistakes the other has made... emotions are (bluntly said) disposable, and i hope that the pains you feel are also the same.

i really can't force you to heed what i've typed though, so i leave it up to you. it may or may not be the best thing to do, but i hope to see your true smile back someday soon. praying for you.